*This is a class assignment
Sorry Brother Meeker, I had to give a disclaimer to all my dumb friends who might come across this (just kidding, they’re not dumb, I love them).
My name is Brittany and I’m a good person. The following is an array of pictures from this past semester that depict who I am. Not just who people see me as being, but who I actually feel I am on the inside. As the pictures progress I will move from my front stage to my backstage, since, I believe, both the person I display on the outside and the person I feel on the inside make up who I am as a whole.
In previous semesters, those two identities (who I displayed and who I felt) were further apart than they are now. Through the years and especially this current semester, I have integrated those two personalities and am slowly, but surely, on my way of becoming that person I’ve always wanted to become.
Throughout the majority of my life I’ve had this ideal self of who I wanted to become, not necessarily who I thought I was, but who I wanted to develop into. I’d honestly thought that one day I would wake up and become that person; maybe when I went to college, maybe when I got married, maybe when something happened. I soon came to my senses (I say soon not because it was soon, but because it flows nicely in the sentence) and realized I had to start acting like that person if I really wanted to become it. President John Taylor said, you “cannot inherit a celestial glory without being obedient to a celestial law.” Thus, I couldn’t be who I wanted to be without acting how that person would act.
This is where I’ve ended up so far in July of 2008:
Thursday, July 10, 2008
I was going to have pictures of me opening my mission call...
instead, here are some pictures of me opening an empty mailbox...
the Lord sure does have a sense of humor.
(This is demonstrating the patience I've learned through all this waiting... I decided not to document the "not my call" mail which I threw on the ground out of anger.) 
That’s me all summed up in about 20 pictures. On the outside I’m loud, and I’m crazy, maybe even a little obnoxious. Put on some Andrew W.K. (you’ll have to look that up on your own) and I’ll be banging my head around for hours. I only do that on special occasions, though (and yes, last night was a special occasion).
I feel most like myself, however, when I’m having a conversation with just a few people that would make the majority of Americans want to shoot their faces off (due to lack of comprehension). I, myself, don’t comprehend the conversations, but that’s the beauty of it. When I don’t understand and know there’s no possible way I will, I see the world in a completely new perspective.
Previously with the demeanor I’d chosen to display I’ve been characterized according to the clothes I wear, the way I do my hair, and the music I listen to. All the conversations I had with people consisted of those three subjects. But that's not who I am. I didn’t want people to jump to conclusions about who I am solely based on those things.
So, I decided to change. The first step I took was to dress more conservatively (that is not a simple task; getting a new wardrobe), and steer clear of situations in which I could easily be distracted. When I meet people for the first time, or any time, I don’t want them to be preoccupied with the clothes I’m wearing. I don’t want to distract them from getting to know me because of the loud clothing on my body. I want them to look in my eyes and see the spirit held within.
Growing up I’ve had my own minor bodily stigmas which “helped” me make a lot of my decisions. As I’ve gotten older, though, I’ve realized everyone has them. I shouldn’t allow those meaningless attributes dictate how I live my life. Nobody cares about them anyway. Mark Twain once said, “You stop worrying about what other people think about you when you realize how little they do.” People are way too concerned with themselves to worry about you. We’ve got enough to deal with without letting Satan tear down our self esteem as well.
This collection of photos, as I already explained, illustrates who I am going from my front to my backstage. I’m going to go through a few and hopefully more fully describe who Brittany Mayhugh really is. This compilation starts out with a few pictures to show how intense I am. I don’t know how accurately that word really describes me, but I say it a lot, so it works. I'm just a girl that likes to get out and have fun, I really don't worry about alot of things. My life could be turned upside down but i'll still have my head on straight.
The most interesting part of myself, who I am on the inside, starts with the picture captioned, "soakin' up as much as I can." At this point in my life I'm trying to learn as much as I can. I'm preparing to serve a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and my inadequacy is overwhelmingly apparent. I'm just trying to learn as much as I can in the next few months.
The next picture I want to go into depth about is the one entitled, “Looking for more.” I’m never content with the outside meaning of things. I like to get in deep and really dissect certain concepts. That, however, is not true of everything. Like I said before, I’m pretty relaxed and easy going. I really don’t care about too much. The things I do care about, however, are those things that matter most. And when it comes to those topics, I tend to dig deep and am never content with only the surface.
The pictures showing me open an empty mailbox have a lot of insight. Not really the “empty mailbox” part, but the “waiting for the call” part. When I go out on a mission I will reach heights I’ve never thought possible. The opportunity of living continually in the spirit will help me gain a greater understanding of the person of which I have the capacity of becoming.
The last two pictures depict where I place the center of my existence. I am so imperfect, but I try to maintain a clear head and always uphold an eternal perspective. I know what really matters in this world and I am determined to not let anything get in the way. I will do my best to make the people around me feel more comfortable and make their burdens lighter. That’s what this life is all about and that is the way I intend on living mine.
That’s who I am. I’m just me. All I really want to do is help people be happy.
I feel most like myself, however, when I’m having a conversation with just a few people that would make the majority of Americans want to shoot their faces off (due to lack of comprehension). I, myself, don’t comprehend the conversations, but that’s the beauty of it. When I don’t understand and know there’s no possible way I will, I see the world in a completely new perspective.
Previously with the demeanor I’d chosen to display I’ve been characterized according to the clothes I wear, the way I do my hair, and the music I listen to. All the conversations I had with people consisted of those three subjects. But that's not who I am. I didn’t want people to jump to conclusions about who I am solely based on those things.
So, I decided to change. The first step I took was to dress more conservatively (that is not a simple task; getting a new wardrobe), and steer clear of situations in which I could easily be distracted. When I meet people for the first time, or any time, I don’t want them to be preoccupied with the clothes I’m wearing. I don’t want to distract them from getting to know me because of the loud clothing on my body. I want them to look in my eyes and see the spirit held within.
Growing up I’ve had my own minor bodily stigmas which “helped” me make a lot of my decisions. As I’ve gotten older, though, I’ve realized everyone has them. I shouldn’t allow those meaningless attributes dictate how I live my life. Nobody cares about them anyway. Mark Twain once said, “You stop worrying about what other people think about you when you realize how little they do.” People are way too concerned with themselves to worry about you. We’ve got enough to deal with without letting Satan tear down our self esteem as well.
This collection of photos, as I already explained, illustrates who I am going from my front to my backstage. I’m going to go through a few and hopefully more fully describe who Brittany Mayhugh really is. This compilation starts out with a few pictures to show how intense I am. I don’t know how accurately that word really describes me, but I say it a lot, so it works. I'm just a girl that likes to get out and have fun, I really don't worry about alot of things. My life could be turned upside down but i'll still have my head on straight.
The most interesting part of myself, who I am on the inside, starts with the picture captioned, "soakin' up as much as I can." At this point in my life I'm trying to learn as much as I can. I'm preparing to serve a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and my inadequacy is overwhelmingly apparent. I'm just trying to learn as much as I can in the next few months.
The next picture I want to go into depth about is the one entitled, “Looking for more.” I’m never content with the outside meaning of things. I like to get in deep and really dissect certain concepts. That, however, is not true of everything. Like I said before, I’m pretty relaxed and easy going. I really don’t care about too much. The things I do care about, however, are those things that matter most. And when it comes to those topics, I tend to dig deep and am never content with only the surface.
The pictures showing me open an empty mailbox have a lot of insight. Not really the “empty mailbox” part, but the “waiting for the call” part. When I go out on a mission I will reach heights I’ve never thought possible. The opportunity of living continually in the spirit will help me gain a greater understanding of the person of which I have the capacity of becoming.
The last two pictures depict where I place the center of my existence. I am so imperfect, but I try to maintain a clear head and always uphold an eternal perspective. I know what really matters in this world and I am determined to not let anything get in the way. I will do my best to make the people around me feel more comfortable and make their burdens lighter. That’s what this life is all about and that is the way I intend on living mine.
That’s who I am. I’m just me. All I really want to do is help people be happy.
*I finally got my mission call: Chile Santiago North!!!
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